It looks like God is going to make me choose between good stewardship and the one joy I have left in my regular life.

God is god.

I swore my life to him.  And he’s the only one who’s going to not throw my loyalty away no matter how much he finds out how much I really am.

Because he already knew it all when he took the cross from me.

Yes, Jesus, you are Lord.



Hope deferred makes the heart sick.
Then Jesus told his disciples, “If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself, take up his cross daily, and follow me.”
For I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us.